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Wednesday, September 06, 2006


Hi all, right now, it's 12.46a.m. according to my computer's clock. I'm feeling really tired. *yawn* (Just for your information, yawning is contagious.) Ugh, slight headache. Well, looking at the stack of holiday homework alone, is enough to make my head explode.

Really. I've too many thoughts in my mind right now. And that's the only reason why I'm writing a post at such a late hour. Don't think I'm so great to stay up and write this just for ya. Exams are just round the corner. In less than a month. Still, I'm not prepared. Still, I'm not ready. I'm scared.

Fear, everyone fears. We are humans, so what do you expect? We have emotions, feelings. There are many "what if"s in my mind now. What if I don't score well? What if I can't take the blow? What if my parents are disappointed? What if everyone mocks at me? What if...? There are just too many. It's uncountable. It's endless.

I often wonder what life is all about. I wonder. I think. Again and again. But one thing I don't understand is that, why do we humans strive so hard when everything will be gone eventually? Are you really so naive to think that life on Earth will never come to an end? Please, do me a favour. Wake up.

Many always say, live your life to the fullest. Ok fine, let's assume I've lived my life to the fullest. Then I die. Well, of course my family and friends will feel sad, but they will eventually die too. So, what's the meaning? Is life just about living it to the fullest and then dying? Is there an afterlife? Is there? Do you get my point?

I don't know. Life's never hard. It's us, humans, who made it hard. People commit suicides, steal, rob, kill, etc., 'coz they are forced to. They have reached a certain extent and couldn't take it anymore. Do you want to know why? 'Coz of us, humans. Why are we so competitive?

There's just too much to say. You won't understand. My thoughts can never be expressed in words. I'm tired. I need a break. I just want everything to stop. I thought it's gone forever, but it's coming back.

Please, I beg of you to leave me alone...

#o4_inhershadows } 'xiaoqii-
9/06/2006 12:51:00 AM

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#| [colours] blue(shades of blue), black, white, dark purple & other dark colours
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#| [beverages] cappuccino, mocha, latte, lemon tea, green tea, pure & low-fat milk, coke, 7-up, pepsi, etc.
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#| [subjects] math, chinese & french! <33
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#" to be an interior designer o.O
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#" friends
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#" people whom i can trust and their trust (:
#" a good rest :(
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#" new laptop!
#" new handphone
#" new camera for the family!
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